july 7,2010

The pain will be endless that's for sure, but in every pain there is always a reward...
So i went to Davao city today to pick-up something very important.  The heaviest paper i have ever held. i had it done long before but i had to do it again :(...But this time with a friend's help.  Hope this will be the last time that i will be dealing with it.  I just wish you all the happiness that this document offers you....madami pa din talaga nagmamahal sakin..salamat naman...pero i am not ready yet....yoko ng gulo na idudulot nyo...:)

july 5,2010

The storm will soon disappear as i will soon journey to another place. New place, new beginning:) A start of a new life and new dreams of a happy forever. Life is not all about falling but it's about how you would stand up in everytime you fall.  When you feel disappointed just look for the reason and purpose why it happened in the first place.  In every stone thrown against me, i have learned to be stronger and loving each day i wake up and tell myself that im alive and healthy and still has the chance to be happy and make other people happy.  That puts a smile on my face each day that i can be a sunshine to the people who truly love me.

july3,2010

My head is so stuck with you....
I have so much ideas, but it seems i couldn't put it in words.
This is kinda wierd for me...lalalala...
stop me please...take me out of this craziness.
disaster!!!!!!!!!!

passig resort, bato, sta. cruz, davao del sur

last june 25,2010, a day before the birthday of my bestfriend, we joined a medical mission organized by the provincial health office sponsored by the Gov. Cagas and Cong. Mark Cagas, held at Bato, Sta. Cruz Davao, del Sur.  Twas my bestfriend's off so i we went with the the medical team coz we wanted to be a part of it, coz it's our happiness.  It was raining heavily but it was a successful event.  The team decided to go to Passig right after the mission but since it was raining heavily the team didnt pushed through with what we had planned, but the ever adventurous bf and i and her husband did. So here are some photos which i enjoyed so much. Just bring slippers if you want to swim coz there are plenty of stones but other than that you'll have fan. I love the fact that it's an environment friendly place.. love the tiny fishes....i'll go back there for sure

Piapi Beach, Padada, Davao del sur

Mt Apo view from Piapi Beach, Padada, Davao del sur

One of the cottages

Cottages from afar and the doggie nga akong natripan lang

fresh seashells that we bought from  kids for 45 pesos

few photos of me...


Since i wasn't able to join my relatives yesterday for our yearly celebration of my lola's traditional fiesta, i went today. I didn't really intend to go to the beach but since they were going i went with them. But i was just a mere audience for personal reason. We brought with us the rice cake left over of yesterday's occasion then i bought foodies at the nearby sari sari store there.  Since i didn't join them in the water i settle myself in the videoke machine together with some young musicians who were, i guess at that time practicing there pieces for they brought with instruments. All in all my experience today was fun and the water for me was very refreshing to see. My sisters and i grew up in this beach because it's close to my grandmother's home.  We would ride bicycles just to have a swim in the beach or pick up some shells or go fishing. I even remember catching some tiny crabs. Funny, until now i still enjoy these simple pleasures that i get from the beach. I will never ever get tired of going to the beach, though i dont know how to swim really. Thank you God

13/06/10

I love animals...they give me happiness and as i've always said they are stress relieving.  These cats in the photos are my pusakals...Mom used to hate them, now it's changed coz mom knows i love these cats.  And i am not gala so i guess for a mother she's happy that i am happy just petting these animals. In a way they are helping us finish our left over food or if not i cook their food......

i am so in love with this jericho rosales' version of "and i love her" originally from The Beatles.  I've watched him sang this one in a tv show this afternoon, and immediately fell in love with it, plus the fact that my crush echo was singing it. He is simply charming...:) napasaya nya ako hihihihi..

im just so in love with this version of jericho rosales of "and i love her" and he's so "kakagigil"...he is simply charming..i also like the concept..for sure im going to watch this again and again..:)

Medical Mission @ Sinawilan, Hagonoy, Davao del Sur

June 11,2010 is very memorable to me..It's my second time that i was able to join medical mission. I am not in a medical field but it's my joy to be of help to others. More than helping others it helps me more.  It's my ultimate dream and desire to really reach out and i am so happy that i am doing it in my own little way. Thanks to my bestfriend Marianne for always inviting me to join them together with her husband bobong. I am  super happy, i wish i will be invited again next time..i am always ready...Than you GOD for this great opportunity to give back what you have given me.

Bluejaz resort and waterpark

Yesterday was the very first time that i ever felt so home and relaxed and feel so part of the world, after maybe 1 year or so of cloudy skies for me. as i just lay there watching the skies like cotton candies, i found peace of mind. i wished the moment moment never end.  Sana ganun nalang ang feeling:). But no, i have to go out and see my real world and fight this feelings. but then i am so happy that i found a place where i can just run away and hide myself and where i can find solace.  Seeing the wonder of nature i've realized it's is the only way to heal yourself completely..i didnt even have time to take photos coz i waz just enjoying the moment..next time...i was with my sister honey and her daughter rayven..rayven like any other kids and the ever childish me, enjoyed the sand and the clean water of the beach..we'll go back for sure. Thanks to Bluejaz Resort and Waterpark for making me happy..i will definitely come back for more memories:)http://www.bluejaz.net/Directions.html
that's the link if you want to check....have fun

june 4,2010

a lot has happened lately with my colorful life. it's a never ending adventure:) but one thing is for sure i am so home.  simple and iny home yet so lovely. we dont talk so much yet we respect,understand, and support each other. one thing is really making me happy is the fact that GOD is on our side. HE wont give you storms in life unless HE knew that you can go through the storm gracefully and still faithful to HIM. no matter how shaky life's storm is,i just close my eyes and knew that HE is holding me tight and just like a father to HIS daughter, just love me for what i am.. thank you GOD for all the gifts and blessings...

today is the death anniversary of my grandma, dad's mother...i know she's watching and guiding us and keep us safe always..thank you granny..love you...we surely miss you but i know you are in a better place than here.

what i miss most..

how i miss doing this..writing my mind out ...so much fun and very comforting for me. but i am also happy that i am able to leave a simple life minus the technology. with the electric power on and off :-) i manage pretty well. im so proud of myself. whgo says i am such a high maintenance girls:-). i love the mountains and the simple life in town. I love riding trikes and long walks..the sun.. afterall i am a simple person...:-)

the foodies i love

this choco used to keep me drooling. we we'rent rich so this was very expensive for me while i was growing up.but i promised myself that one day i will have this till my tummy wont take it any longer.but the taste is different.before was yummier and the packaging before was more appealing. 

here im eating green mango dipped in soy sauce with vinegar. it is very sour yay! i can only take one bite size

i cooked this one.i love to create my own recipies,just about anything i could find in the kitchen.i call this chilli chicken wings..

we filipinos call this halo halo. lots of preserved fruits inside with milk and ice cream,with crashed ice..yummy a total refreshing snack for summer.shall i say all year round here in philippines cause we are in a tropical country

i hope you like my blog. this is where i just write my thoughts.whatever it is.:)

thanks for reading.

mach 10,2010

so i was just basilly hanging around with my pets today, which i love doing :) i believe it's very therapeutic and relaxing. i feel so happy whenever i am around them.they are my babies, and they are very affectionate. things wont be the same for all us soon, and it's hard for me, but i have to.. they will be fine,which i always pray to GOD that they will be. GOD will take care of all HIS creation..amen for that.

i am a soldier

 

when i was younger i used to dream of becoming a member of the PNP, since my dad is also in the PNP. i idolized him a lot back then.  but unfortunately there was  height requirement, so i didn't passed on that category.  if given a chance in the PNP field i wanna be on the ground and not in the office. or a secret agent, that would be fun. but my dad wouldn't be happy with that.:) my dad used to tell that i am not bound for that profession cause i am lame, but you know it was my passion, and i really wanted it.  i am a cowgirl anyway..just thinking bout it right now puts a smile on my face, like what if...:) but life is like a battlefield too. you have to protect and fought life's battle, which requires so much strengtht and courage.  i'd like to think that i am a good fighter, lifes battle is not over yet, i still have to face  lots of wars, but my best weapon is not harmful but sweet :) humilty is the best weapon. and when my battle here is over, i wanna be remembered as the humble franz to everyone who trusted and loved me sincerely.  

jan.27,2010

Today felt both heavy and happy.  I find the peace and certainty that i've been longing..and finally my road is sraight again and i know now i only have to look forward.  I might look behind but only to remember memories that you can never deny. This is going to be a long process for me, well it's going to be an endless pain, that's what i know now. But i GOD  is with me all throughout this journey. The road might be tough but i have steady hand that i can hold on to. Soon i will be facing the places and people that will tear my heart into pieces, and i dont how i will be when that comes, i hope i will get on with it gracefully like woman who lost her husband in a battle. I have done nothing wrong so that i will stand tall not to the people  but to GOD whom i made a promise .

over..

i was able to talk to him today,and i've heard what i just needed to hear from him.  now i can finally move on and never worry weather he's ok or not. he has a girlfriend already so he's getting on with life. im happy for him. just as what he needed. oh yeah, it really hurts to the highest level,but GOD is with me, HE readed me for this moment and HE see to it that HE made me feel that HE's there. as for me, i dont know as to when i'll be over this whole thing, but i am happy nevertherless knowing that he's happy..no matter how hard life's situation is, if you let GOD in control of everything...things will become lighter..and i've proven that.

and just like the rose i've found in my garden this morning GOD will lay HIS hands on me and adore me forever

"Mahal Mo Ba Ako?"

This is a phrase that always pops-up in my head every minute of the day,specially when im alone not just alone,but feeling lonely.We all have our lonely moments,even when we are in a crowded place, loneliness struck us sometimes. So this phrase "Mahal mo ba ako?" is always in my hard head. I keep on asking myself why?, but i dont seem to get the answer. Maybe because i have not felt it with my past relationships who seemed to tell me that they love me but left me in the end?! Or maybe i just want  an assurance that the people whom i love really do care for me for who i am. "Walang iwanan" is really hard to keep up, specially if you are both strangers just met somewhere along the way, and manage to get along pretty well. But i've discovered that there is really a limitation to that phrase. Is "Walang iwanan" means that if you do stand by it really means you love the person? Coz for me it is.  But then sometimes you left someone because you love the person so much that you dont want that person to suffer  and just want that person to be happy, though you would suffer from that separation..I dont know, but i for myself would like to just lift all my sufferings to GOD and let HIM do the loving that i am needing. As i am writing this, i realized i found the answer to the phrase" Mahal mo ba ako?",and everytime i am asking that question is when im all by myself and just talking to myself, and my heart is GOD's home, so the answer is YES, GOD loves me so much, that's why i am here still alive and experiencing HIS goodness.  Thank you GOD...